Huhu.. duit keluar.. masih belum ada yg belum masuk lagi.. camna ni? Harap2 kotak2 shipping aku sampai dgn segera dan selamatnya. Patutnya dah sampai… tapi knp tah lambat pulak.

Hari ni dah gi hantar thesis utk binding. Alhamdulillah.. esok leh amik dah. Sian sv aku. Lambat pulak aku bg thesis2 tuh. Harap semua okay la.. Aku ada hadiah juga utk diorg. Buku pasal fact about Malaysia. Very interesting! Harap2 kedua2 sv aku pun sukakannya. Bukunya takla cantik sgt.. tp faktanya menarik! Aku pun rasa tertarik! :p

Okay… semua benda dlm ‘to do list’ dah hampir selesai… by end of this week, boleh concentrate nak tulis proposal dan wat research utk gi Jepun!! Yatta!

Esok pula ada meeting dgn Prof Sankar pasal nak wat bengkel computational studies. Hope everything will run smoothly.. Haa… bagi sesiapa yang sukakan kimia, tapi malas nak masuk makmal… dan sangat sukakan computer, bolehla jumpa saya utk jadi student saya. Kita wat modelling… oooppps.. molecular modelling ;)

Hari-hariku di UTM

Lagi seminggu lagi semester baru akan bermula. So dalam dua minggu aku di UTM keadaan sangat sunyi. Kedai makan pun hanya beberapa sahaja yang bukak. Aku pun dah naik bosan makan di Meranti. Kekadang sedap.. kekadang tak sedap sgt. Adakalanya juga nasinya mentah. Huhu.. Rindu nak masak makanan sendiri. Ikut selera sendiri. Bila la aku nak ada rumah sendiri ni?? (Berangan sekejap).

Hujung minggu pula agak bosan sebab internet takde. Jadi petangnya kami round jalan2 satu UTM. Jalan ke kolej 12/13. Tengok pokok2 buah di sepanjang jalan. Sambil2 tu kami teka la pokok apa sepanjang jalan tu. Sebenarnya sunyi gak jalan tu. Tapi sebab kami berdua, takla sunyi sgt. Kalau sorg2, anda dinasihatkan utk tidak melakukannya!

Memula sampai kolej 12.. pastu lalu jambatan ke kolej 13. Best juga sebab penuh dengan persekitaran yang hijau. I like! Harap2 boleh turun la power spek aku ni. Tujuan kami sebenarnya, selain nak jogging @ jalan2, ialah nak pergi cafe Kolej 12/13 sebab Seha kata makanan di sana sedap. Tu yg berjalan jauh tu.. Sekalinya hanya kedai runcit yg buka. Lepas beli air menghilangkan dahaga, kami sambung perjalanan pulang ke Cafe Meranti utk beli makanan sbb perut dah lapar..

Tapi dua tiga hari lepas things gets a bit complicated. I have lots of breakdowns. Motor la.. lesen la.. phone la.. kena keluar UTM hampir hari2. Sekali keluar je dah RM10. Fuh! Kalau dah 3 kali dalam minggu ni je? Aduhai.. Pastu on the third day keluar Seha kata nak belikan aku hadiah PhD. Hehe.. Terus rasa best. Kami pun gi la beli hadiah aku. Macam Mr. Smiley Zura. Nama dia KeroKero! Dia sentiasa senyum dgn lebarnya dan tak pernah sedih. Aku pun nak jadi camtu gak :) Perasaan sedih tu pasti akan ada.. tapi bukankah Muslim tu sentiasa bersyukur atas apa yg menimpa padanya. So put your best smile in whatever you do! ^_^ Comel, kan dia?

Minggu depan bermulalah sesi Sem 2 2009/10. Tahniah pada yg meningkat keputusannya, dan teruskan berusaha bagi yg masih belum mencapai target yg diidamkan. Dan… Semoga sem ni aku dpt dapat pelajar yang baik2 dan yang bersemangat waja! Sekian dulu. Wassalam!

In this story.. the HERO is YOU!

Yeay!! Finally!! I got it! The translation of Hero song by Safarii.
I kinda understand what it means but not all of it.
And when i got the real translation, indeed, its what I've imagine.
SO happy today!

And to all my friends, lets create our own heroic story in this lifetime!
As they said in this song.. 'In this story.. the HERO is YOU!'



Safarii – Hero

Lyrics: Safarii
Music: Safarii

The sun is too bright, I can’t walk forward with my head up
I hear laughter echoing but the city streets feel lonely somehow
I wonder when I’ll be as strong and gentle as you
Though I try to hide it, an emptiness remains in my heart

*The truth is I have no self-confidence, I’m a pitiful weakling
Today is so hard I want to cry, beneath my fake smile I cry…
I don’t need to be strong, don’t need to pretend or lie to myself
Because the Hero of this story is me

I try to smile and act happy to fit in with others
I can’t say what I really feel, my reflection is a lie
It was easy to be the same as everyone, I was scared of being alone
I saw you fading in the distance, a Hero who faced adversity
But then I also realized this one thing about myself

(Repeat*)

I know everything changes, I’ll keep searching for answers my whole life
Tomorrow was more important than today, I was forward and self-centered
I didn’t know what true strength was but I put all my effort into pretending
And I hurt others and in the process ended up hurting myself
It’s okay if I’m a coward or if I’m uncool or selfish, it doesn’t matter
First, I’ll start from a place I know and get rid of the clouds in my heart
I’m the Hero of my story, you’re the Hero of your story, so is everyone else
See? It gets easier if you think of it like that

The truth is I have no self-confidence, I’m a pitiful weakling
Today is so hard I want to cry, beneath my fake smile I cry…
I’m not cool enough to save someone else
But there’s only one of me in the world

(Repeat*)

Penat juga otak selepas 2 hari bersimposium dgn pakar2 sains. Memang menarik dan very refreshing! Wah.. tapi mmg byk juga perkara bermain di kepala.

My mind says.. yes! I really wanna make a difference and contribute something for a better world! But my heart says.. can I do it? MasyaAllah. I feel so little.

Aku jumpa quote baru dari Jack Canfield;

Successful people do the uncomfortable and face the facts squarely. What
can you do today that you have been avoiding?

-Wow! There's a lot to think of bila aku fikir pasal ni.

Dan kawan aku juga pernah bgtau...

COURAGE is something you FEAR, but you DO it anyway.

I have to keep reminding myself of these encouragement words.. yeah! Ganbatte!

Sebiru hari ini, Seindah pelangi

Detik hari semakin hampir utk aku pulang ke tanah air.
Hari2 yg berbaki terisi dgn pelbagai rutin utk pulang.
Pembetulan thesis, packing barang, pengagihan barang2 yg ingin ditinggalkan, penutupan akaun bank, tulis surat utk tutup semua akaun yg ada, clearkan segala hutang.. dll..

Pendek kata.. mcm2 la..

Tapi yg paling best ialah menghargai hari2 terakhir aku dgn sahabat handai di sini.
Yang entah bila akan aku jumpa semula mereka di Malaysia. Subhanallah.. sayunya rasa hati.

Semalam pula dah say my goodbyes to both of my supervisors. Sbb diorg bz the rest of the week. Sedih je rasa. Tesis aku dah lulus utk hantar hard binding.. memula ingat nak wat kat mesia je binding tuh.. tp sv aku yg sorg ni kata xpe.. aku hantar je binding, dan dia hantarkan kt office. Huhu.. baiknyer~ I'm so lucky to hv them as my GURU. InsyaAllah, jasa kalian akan ku kenang.

Lepas tutup akaun ptg tadi, aku nampak pelangi. Wah.. walau sepanjang minggu ni asyik hujan je, aku masih dpt lihat pelangi. Lucky!!!! Hope there will be lots more RAINBOWS in my life!

Yeay!

Gambar pelangi yg aku ambil smlm:


Dan buat sahabat2 yg masih berjuang di bumi Cardiff, tak lupa sahabat2 lain di segenap pelusuk bumi Allah ini, this song is for you!

Tadi jumpa supervisor aku.
Bincang pasal correction sikit.
Then camna nak tubuhkan group research sendiri..
Wa... terasa berdebar2 pulak.
Menarik pun ada.
Yeah! I'm playing a game to establish a research group of mine.
Weeee~ I feel like an adult now. Hehe.

Subhanallah Alhamdulillah ALLHUAKBAR!!!!!!!!

I feel down today, but I don't know why.
Agitating and axiety attack...
Moga Allah mudahkan segalanya.

Allahumma salli ala Muhammad, wa ala saidina Muhammad.