Hanya Tuhan Yang Tahu

Hari ni exam paper last...

Tamat tepat jam 12 tgh.

Diam..Kelu..
Tundukku membisu...
Hanya takdir yang menjadi penentu..

Ya Allah..
Tawakalku hanya padaMu.

Titik.

Ikan Masin Di Jalanan

Tomorrow will be my first exam for this semester. So, I'm so motivated to do my last part of revision study. To look at the exam papers and remember the important points. Woke up at 5.00 a.m, and study after perform the Subuh prayer. Quite early lately. Today it is at 2.45 a.m and ends at 5.23 a.m. Actually, I wanna woke up earlier, but just too tired and sleepy from yesterday.

Study in my room all morning. After Dzuhur, I don't have the feeling to study in the room. Just wanna go out. So, the library is the best place. Just at the back of our flat. Took about 5 minutes.

When I get down the flat, I saw a lot of people picnicking around the blocks. They were all lying happily on the ground... enjoying the sunshine. It was okay for me... But actually, what irritates me is they are all half naked!!! Astaghfirullah. Tak pasal kurang ilmu aku bila tertengok aurat orang. I just felt that don't they just felt ashamed of themselves??? Half naked mannn!! not just the boys...but the girls tooo...
Just like wearing underwear..not just, but they are!!

Hmm... whats bout the world now? People don't feel anything anymore...

Studied in library just bout one and half hour. Too sleepy... Took a 15 min break and study again. Came back and eat pasta in the kitchen. Just so... hungry! Then my flatmate came. We chat while eating... Talk a lot! Especially bout what's going on outside there. Memang kami kutuk habis-habisan. Even in China they dont wear like that!

Huhuhu...I'm full now.. Hope didn't fell asleep after this. I felt so heavy these days. Maybe byk makan, tak exaercise dan dah lama tak puasa sunat. InsyaAllah... kalau berkemampuan nak gak puasa lepas exam ni. Hope I can bear it! ;)

Kay... nak solat dan pi study balik.

"Ya Allah... permudahkanlah urusanku pada esok hari dan dlm menempuh exam ni."

Unfolding The Rose

A young, new preacher was walking with an older, more seasoned preacher in the garden one day and feeling a bit insecure about what God had for him to do, he was inquiring of the older preacher. The older preacher walked up to rosebush and handed the young preacher a rosebud and told him to open it without tearing off any petals.

The young preacher looked in disbelief at the older preacher and was trying to figure out what a rosebud could possibly have to do with his wanting to know the WILL OF GOD for his life and for his ministry. Because of his high respect for the older preacher, he proceeded to TRY to unfold the rose, while keeping every petal intact... It wasn't long before he realized how impossible it was to do so .

Noticing the young preacher's inability to unfold the rosebud while keeping it intact, the older preacher began to recite the following poem....

"It is only a tiny rosebud,
A flower of God's design;
But I cannot unfold the petals
With this clumsy hands of mine.
The secret of unfolding flowers
Is not known to such as I.
GOD opens this flower so sweetly,
When in my hands they fade and die.
If I cannot unfold a rosebud,
This flower of God's design,
Then how can I think I have wisdom
To unfold this life of mine?
So I'll trust in Him for His leading
Each moment of everyday.
I will look to Him for his guidance
Each step of the pilgrim way.
The pathway that lies before me,
Only my Heavenly Father knows.
I'll trust Him to unfold the moments,
Just as He unfolds the rose."