Hujan turun tak berhenti-henti. Dah dua hari berturut2 dah. Aku duduk di atas katil, tepi tingkap melihatkan rintik hujan yang turun. Hanya satu saja perkataan yang boleh menafsirkannya. Lebat. Sangat lebat. Mancurah-curah. [Eh.. dah lebih satu tuh..]

Subhanallah...

Seha pulak tengah melihat skrin FBnya. Haha.. tak abis2..

Aku suakan makanan tengahari padanya. Takde apa yang spesial pun.. hanya popiah otak2, karipap dan sosej yang aku goreng tadi.

Sedap?

Sedap aje.. janji panas dan boleh alas perut lapar. Tunggu petang sikit baru masak proper.

Tingkap bilik kubuka.. Makin jelas bunyi rintik hujan itu. Bagai alunan muzik persembahan alam.

Satu demi satu kami menghabiskan makanan di depan mata.

"Aku kata.. kalau hujan 3 hari berturut2 ni... Macam hari akan kiamat je."
"Tambah pula dengan pelbagai berita dunia yang agak kontroversi. Di Tunisia dan Mesir..."

Dalam hati, aku rasa tak mustahil, mungkin kebangkitan dunia juga akan berlaku selepas ini. Wah!

Dan bumi Palestin akan bebas? InsyaAllah. Pejuang2 Allah mula mengumpul tenaga menegakkan yang haq dan menumpaskan yang batil.

Aku utarakan persoalan... "Andai kata esok Kiamat, macam mana?"

Kalau esok kiamat... dah tentu ini semua tak penting buat kita. Dunia dan segala isinya. Semua perkara dunia yang merisaukan setiap manusia.

Sebenarnya, tak dinafikan.. aku juga rasa lega tentang perkara ini. If tomorrow's the end of the world, nothing is significant anymore. Tapi... perkara lain pula yang merisaukan...Tentang bagaimana keadaan aku di akhirat nanti? Jika esok kiamat, adakah aku akan masih duduk saja sambil merenung hujan? Atau apakah?

Astaghfirullah.. Masih banyak lagi yang belum aku buat sebagai hamba di muka bumi ini.

Harapanku.. Moga Allah meredhai seluruh hidupku ini.
Ameen.

"I haven't found someone with such determination, yet..."
It's rare to have it here.

A friend said, "You think too much, Has."
I replied, "I know..."

And we have a good laugh about it.

Owh.. how I miss that moments.

Dalam menelusuri hidup ini, segala ranjau dugaan diredah

Dalam hati seorang pejuang, tidak boleh ada rasa gundah

Payah, resah gelisah jangan sampai membuat engkau melatah
Dalam kemelut itu, carilah Dia.. Ketenangan yang abadi, tiada titik noktah

(^__^)v

Just something that I sketched in paint. Hehe...

Bangah naik pangkat

Minggu lepas mak telefon. Dia kata bangah dapat surat. Owh, aku terus teka... "Dia naik pangkat ke?" Mak mengiyakan. Dan aku pasti mesti mak tersengih lebar. Sebab aku pun sama. Alhamdulillah, dlm hati aku berbisik. Allah murahkan rezeki dia.
Beberapa hari kemudian, bangah call. Dia brag about his new position. Well... aku gelak je.. Saja aku usik dia.. buat nada tak puas hati. Hmph.. takyah belajar tinggi2.. boleh dapat gaji sama tahap dgn org yg wat PhD. - Saje je.. bagi dia bangga sikit. Yela.. org dah naik pangkat, kan..

"Ha.. tu la.. kan aku dah kata... Rezeki Allah datang dari jalan yang tak disangka2. Betul tak?" Bangah mengiyakan aje. May Allah increase our faith to Him. InsyaAllah.

Dia sambung.. dia kata, "Kalau Abah ada.. aku nak je cakap kat abah.." "Abah.. bangah takyah belajar tinggi2 pun dah boleh sama gaji ngan org amik PhD. Takyah susah2 belajar sampai luar negara.. Tapi tu aa..."

Di balik talian, aku senyum je.. suasana senyap. Sebak jap. Tapi biasala.. kakak kena control macho.. so lepas tu aku gelak je la.. Dalam hati, fikiran aku menerawang entah ke mana.. Teringatkan abah.

Hmm.. takpe.. walau jauh di mata.. Abah sentiasa dekat di hati... Moga Allah merahmati roh beliau yang telah membesarkan kami sehingga menjadi manusia berguna. Walau dengan segala susah payahnya.. Terima kasih, Abah.. Terima kasih Allah.

FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE...
YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART

A time for reflection

By JOANNE KEK

As a woman turns 27, she pauses to pen a letter to her 17-year-old self.

GOSH, isn’t the world your oyster. At 17, you’re still a gawky kid, nervous and unsure about going to the big city. You’ll eventually turn out to be a pretty good-looking pearl, even though you don’t know it yet.

It will take a couple of years before you finally start to feel comfortable in your own skin. In time, you’ll get there, and you’ll be surprised to know that you don’t need to change very much to feel that way.

You will leave the boy you’re currently with and, one Valentine’s day shortly thereafter, another boy will call, wake you up from an afternoon nap and ask you to meet him at his car. Then he’ll produce a Valentine’s day card (which you still keep), and you’ll fall so, so head over heels in love. Some of your best memories of your early 20s? He’ll be in them.

You will learn what makes a good relationship. But you’ll also learn that people change, and they come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. That boy was a reason or a season – and one day, he will leave. You’ll cry, you will question, but you’ll be okay.

As you grow older, you will realise that a lot of what mum told you is true. And dad? He will mellow and eventually even work on trying to get you married! Spend time with mum ... because you won’t have much time left. You will be surprised to realise that you’ll wonder what she would say or do at key milestones in your life.

Career? Scrap the pharmacist/doctor bit, babe. You definitely didn’t see this coming – but you really have a passion for numbers, and a surprising attention to detail, even though you are still messy and don’t clean or organise very well.

Remember that family trumps all. When the shit hits the fan, they’ll be the ones helping you clean up. Make friends with everyone, but keep selected ones close.

Say less and listen more. Show compassion; pass less judgment; pause to think and reflect.

Do everything you want to do – yes, even entering a beauty contest. And don’t chicken out once you’ve been shortlisted as a finalist because you are young, and you’ve got nothing to lose.

I suppose I should let you know that you won’t be married at your ideal age of 24. In fact, I’m not even sure if you’ll be married before you hit the big 30. But you’ll be okay. You have to be.

Instead of waiting for someone to buy you a home, you will buy one yourself. Although you’ll be fiercely independent, remember to retain what makes you a woman – compassion, grace, bouts of tears and, of course, class.

And, there is nothing some sleep and a long hot bath cannot improve.

Happy birthday, gal. From your older self, who always wants to be some parts woman, and many parts girl.

Panduan menerima nasihat

Walau bagaimanapun keadaan kita, kehidupan masih perlu diteruskan.
Carilah nasihat mereka yang berpengalaman dan yang paling penting carilah restu ibu dan bapa kita. Kerana mereka yang melahirkan kita ke dunia ini. Dengan restu dan redha mereka, insyaAllah redha Allah bersama2 kita. Segala kerja dipermudahkanNya.

Kadang2 kita rasa keluarga kita yang paling selalu menjatuhkan semangat kita. Menyekat kemahuan kita.. Tapi ketahuilah.. mereka yang paling kenal diri kita daripada kawan2 kita. Nasihat mereka bukan bermaksud menjatuhkan kita.. mereka sayang pada kita. Malah, sedikit keuntungan pun tidak mereka perolehi dari nasihat yg diberikan. Kalau kawan2 kita, mungkin mereka mempunyai kepentingan masing2. Mungkin.. tidak bermaksud semua. Ramai juga rakan2 yg baik..

Nasihat saya, janganlah diabaikan pandangan ibu bapa dan keluarga semasa membuat keputusan. Merekalah yg akan bersama dengan kita ketika susah dan senang dan bukan orang lain.

Percayalah...